A Clockwork Phoenix Epiphany
(From The Triumph of Strife: an homage to Dante Alighieri and Percy Shelley)
A poet woke midway through his life's course
Another dreamed beside a public way
But this epiphany comes as remorse
That our lost war should rise another day
A clockwork lemon, Phoenix irony,
With villages destroyed and left to lay
In their salvation's ashes, newly free
To resurrect themselves in civil strife;
To stay and die or else to live and flee:
Westmoreland's choice to those who "value life"
Less than we value ours while taking theirs
Computing, as we do, statistics rife
With body counts our panic-proffered wares
We sell again our sullied, soiled affairs
Our epic poets in their offspring tomes
Had muse interpreters to serve and guide
But we move like a legion of lost gnomes
As mad Macbeth sits nursing wounded pride
And Birnam's trees converge on Dunsinane
The witches' prophecies no longer hide
Their glaring flaws once seemingly inane;
Those honest trifles with which trust was won
Betray in deepest consequence germane.
We feel ourselves again by us undone,
By our own fearful blindness held in pawn.
Not long ago we watched this setting sun
Through windows over which some shade was drawn,
And in the twilight's gloom we saw the dawn.
Yet long night's tunnel lay ahead for years
With no light at the end as often spied
By those who spoke of hope but offered tears
To cover for the fact that they had lied
And squandered blood and billions on a bet
That they could "win" some thing unspecified
Their ever-promised victory: "Not yet!"
"These things take time," they say, to stall for more;
Perhaps until some greater fool unmet
Arrives upon the tilted trading floor
And bids up prices further on a loan
So they can sidle sideways out the door
With cash in hand for selling off a moan
That leaves the kids indebted to a groan
We know this song; we've heard its tune before
The lying lyrics so familiar are
A rapping rhythm rotten to the core;
A withered wish upon a falling star;
A dim demented dirge of deathly porn;
A sordid saga for a glib guitar
That steals the future long before it's born;
That grabs at now before some later comes;
That shakes its moneymaking pot unshorn
Of any pretext but to beat the drums;
Inciting riots in the angry mobs
Who steam and seethe in sorrow's shameless slums;
A schizophrenic migraine scream that throbs
To swamp the sound of softly sighing sobs
So now we know the drill and feel the heat,
As spitted we revolve upon the grill
We hurry-up-and-wait like so much meat
Until we’re ordered once again to kill
Professionals, of course, we seldom gloat
We do it for the paycheck, not the thrill
We're paid to down the plane and sink the boat
To amateurs at home we leave the fun
Of grabbing one another by the throat;
To squabble over loot that we have won
For them, not us, to tally up the "wins"
Accruing from the barrel of a gun,
While we must mourn our stretching line that thins:
A metric of our payment for their sins
"The time has come," the Walrus said, "to talk
Of cabbages and kings and sealing wax;"
Before the oysters have the time to balk
And lapse into a state of mind too lax:
Some time to think of that old hoary saw
A recipe encoded in a fax
That says they taste the best when served up raw,
"All hot and bleeding," needing only bread
And vinegar and pepper in the craw,
To go with all the butter thickly spread
To see that nothing sticks while going down;
A deal digesting us, the duped and dead;
A joke to bring a toast to their renown;
The ones who bathe in booty seldom drown.
A motive manifest in us – our fate:
A grim desire that never sleeps or rests,
Compels us like Cervantes to create
Ourselves old oysters on quixotic quests
Like Bedlam's beggars: bald, beseeching, bold;
As ancient mariners to wedding guests,
Condemned to wander till the tale is told;
In our own land considered noisome pests;
Our Odyssey obscure we now unfold
Another encore that no one requests,
With strife again triumphant; peace reviled,
Replete with profane gestures, obscene jests,
The Walrus and the Carpenter, they smiled
To think of all the oysters they'd beguiled
For nothing did we shake our graying heads
Declining to enlist again for naught.
This time we did not leave our oyster beds,
Remembering the last windmills we fought
For faithless frauds whose feckless spending spree
Left them at home to count the coin they sought
By sending us abroad to earn the fee
For graveyard golfing greens that grimly grow
Above our friends for all eternity
Who paid to teach the only truth we know,
That we who lived have tried to pass along:
We reap the whirlwind when the storm we sow.
As earnest as the eerie, Eastern gong,
We sing our sad summation of a song . . .
Michael Murry, "The Misfortune Teller," Copyright © 2006